It’s the little things that used to get me so worked up and anxious. Drawing up medication, priming IV tubing, dealing with IV pumps, dressing changes. Those basic nursing skills that you’re still trying to do by remembering the steps in the book rather than thinking through it in relation to real life and your situation then and there. You start to learn that there is nothing scary about your meds, just have a second set of eyes double check what you’re not sure about. And double check yourself. That if you just think through the situation, it starts to make sense, and the next step comes naturally to you, rather than as a foreign thought you’re trying to dig up from last week’s reading.
It’s all starting to come together and I am feeling myself become familiar with the routine. Familiar, but not yet comfortable. There’s still a lot to learn and a lot to understand, and much more time management to get used to. But there’s definitely a change that I am seeing. A light at the end of the tunnel, and a tiny bounce of confidence in my step when I leave a room knowing that I accomplished something on my own. To all student’s out there: there will come a day when you won’t feel so confused. It doesn’t come at once, but when you start to feel it, you’ll remember that you’re that much closer to your goal!
I'm a brand new, full-fledged, fresh-out-of-school RN! And better yet, I landed the job of my dreams working with children. I love what I do, and while everyday on the job is a new (and sometimes scary) experience, I'm taking it all in - absorbing everything I can about this amazing profession we all fell in love with.
By Ani Burr, RN