What have I gotten myself into?

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I have written in the past about what I was looking for in the performance of nurses that I hire.  About how making an impression is what is most important.  Nurses that are struggling to do well but are really working hard will get my support 100%.  But as soon as I see they are not trying anymore, I am ready to let them go.

I have not made a secret of the fact that I am not happy with my new job.  It is not for me.  I am not sure what it is, but I know now that I am not a clinic nurse.  Not because I think I am better, but because I am not there.  These nurses there are amazing.  Their knowledge and critical thinking is out of this world.

I think my dissatisfaction with this job is really starting to show to my new boss.  I have been talked to a couple of times about my performance.  And when I walk back to my work station, I know I need to step it up, and work to my real potential, but I just can’t do it.  I don’t know why, it’s all in my head.

I know what I need to do.  I know that my performance is showing that I am not trying.  And….I really want to do well.  I really want to be successful.  But the fact that I know I am not cut out for this type of nursing just keeps getting in the way.

It is Saturday now.  I have this weekend to get my head straight and either step it up, or move on.  If I am not going to step it up, I am just wasting my time and the organizations time.

Any suggestions are appreciated.

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Rob Cameron

Rob Cameron is currently a staff nurse in a level II trauma center. He has primarily been an ED nurse for most of his career, but he has also been a nurse manager for Surgical Trauma and Telemetry unit. He has worked in Med/Surg, Critical Care, Hospice, Rehab, an extremely busy cardiology clinic and pretty much anywhere he's been needed.Prior to his career in nursing, Rob worked in healthcare finance and management. Rob feels this experience has given him a perspective on nursing that many never see. He loves nursing because of all the options he has within the field. He is currently a grad student working on an MSN in nursing leadership, and teaches clinicals at a local university.Away from work, Rob spends all of his time with his wife and daughter. He enjoys cycling and Crossfit. He is a die hard NASCAR fan. Sundays you can find Rob watching the race with his daughter.

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7 Responses to What have I gotten myself into?

  1. Sean Dent Scrubs Blogger

    Wow buddy, didn’t know you were that unhappy. It’s hard to be all you can be, when it’s not what you want to be.
    I’m hoping you find what you are looking for, in the meantime I’d probably focus on being the best ‘you’ you can be.
    Remember you’re still a nurse, with a unique set of skills to offer. And above all else, you still have a job, which is a milestone compared to some of our fellow colleagues.
    Good luck.

  2. Mickey

    I think it time to sit down, and list what you like to do on one column. In another list what you are good at. Then review the list and see if you can match what this job meets on either of those lists. Perhaps you can look at what specifics you dislike about this job. Ca any of those be negotiated or changed? If not, perhaps it is time to move onto what really energizes you. Best wishes – you have a lot to offer.

  3. Diane Kirse, RN, BSN

    You don’t say how long you have been at this job. If you have been there 90 days or less, you can quit without giving notice. However, if you have been there over 90 days you should provide a two week notice.
    It sounds like you are unhappy with this job and when you don’t like your job, it is difficult to do your best. One piece of advice however, try to get a job before you leave this one.

  4. Rebecca

    I totally understand… I am currently working @ a State Psych. Hospital… I’ve been there a year and two months… and I can honestly say… I was not born to be a Psych. Nurse… I hate it with a passion…. but for the Nurses who have the strong nerves to work this type of job for years… more power to you… some people are just not cut from the same cloth…and thats ok… Im looking for a different job … and I know I will find what fits me… thanks for listening.. Rebecca RN

  5. Jeffrey Bodurka

    Speaking as someone who worked in psyche for a year before I finally jumped ship out of pure dissatisfaction with the entire environment (not the patients), I can tell you that the one great thing about being an RN is that there are so many different avenues for you to take your degree that your never truly stuck in any given place. While it may be disheartening to have to move on, take an inventory of what you got out of the experience and look for another opportunity to move on. I know of plenty of nurses that worked in numerous different areas before they found their true calling.

  6. Mark

    I hear ya buddy. I was an Emerg Nurse for less than 2 years, then got accepted in the OR 2 months ago. I can say OR is really not my cup of tea.. its very hard to pursue Nursing in an environment that you don’t thrive.
    I feel you buddy.

  7. robin

    dont leave until you have another job if possible. most nursing jobs that i have held, it took 6 months to get my groove and i had a lot of doubts, but im just a slower starter, eventually you will reach a mastery of the day to day process and it will be more automatic, then you can just be a nurse…like driving, you wont have to think of every little detail…give it a little more time but keep your eyes open.