What have I gotten myself into?
I have written in the past about what I was looking for in the performance of nurses that I hire. About how making an impression is what is most important. Nurses that are struggling to do well but are really working hard will get my support 100%. But as soon as I see they are not trying anymore, I am ready to let them go.
I have not made a secret of the fact that I am not happy with my new job. It is not for me. I am not sure what it is, but I know now that I am not a clinic nurse. Not because I think I am better, but because I am not there. These nurses there are amazing. Their knowledge and critical thinking is out of this world.
I think my dissatisfaction with this job is really starting to show to my new boss. I have been talked to a couple of times about my performance. And when I walk back to my work station, I know I need to step it up, and work to my real potential, but I just can’t do it. I don’t know why, it’s all in my head.
I know what I need to do. I know that my performance is showing that I am not trying. And….I really want to do well. I really want to be successful. But the fact that I know I am not cut out for this type of nursing just keeps getting in the way.
It is Saturday now. I have this weekend to get my head straight and either step it up, or move on. If I am not going to step it up, I am just wasting my time and the organizations time.
Any suggestions are appreciated.
Rob Cameron is currently a staff nurse in a level II trauma center. He has primarily been an ED nurse for most of his career, but he has also been a nurse manager for Surgical Trauma and Telemetry unit. He has worked in Med/Surg, Critical Care, Hospice, Rehab, an extremely busy cardiology clinic and pretty much anywhere he's been needed.
Prior to his career in nursing, Rob worked in healthcare finance and management. Rob feels this experience has given him a perspective on nursing that many never see. He loves nursing because of all the options he has within the field. He is currently a grad student working on an MSN in nursing leadership, and teaches clinicals at a local university.
Away from work, Rob spends all of his time with his wife and daughter. He enjoys cycling and Crossfit. He is a die hard NASCAR fan. Sundays you can find Rob watching the race with his daughter.
By Rob Cameron