Will this feeling EVER go away?

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Before I start, I know the answer is yes. Someday. That feeling I get just when I am starting to feel like I know what I am doing, and then suddenly realize I have so much more to learn! SO much more! This final clinical/capstone/preceptorship that we all have to do is great, but I feel like it’s really just to get the basics down. And get a feel for what it’s really like to be a nurse. And while that’s all fine and dandy, I’m not sure we’re really all that prepared to hit the ground running.

It’s tough for faculty to set up curriculum, I know that. But at the same time, my school only requires 90 hours of precepting in our last quarter. That’s 7 ½ shifts! ONLY! Other schools I know require far more than that. Regardless of the hours, I still leave my shift precepting with that gut wrenching feeling.

Even when the day is going well. When I’m feeling more independent. When I think that “hey, maybe I can get the hang of this,”  there’s still a part of me that’s like, “AHHH!  OMG!”  It’s a constant voice in the back of my head. Sometimes it keeps me going, other times it forces me to just take a time out and chill. I feel like nursing school was really just the tip of the iceberg as far as “how to be a nurse.” Just when I felt like I was starting to get the hang of it last quarter, that feeling crept back up and reminded me that there’s a whole other world out there that I’ve got to learn about. I guess all I can do is muster up my knowledge, say a prayer,  take a deep breath, and jump in.

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Ani Burr, RN

I'm a brand new, full-fledged, fresh-out-of-school RN! And better yet, I landed the job of my dreams working with children. I love what I do, and while everyday on the job is a new (and sometimes scary) experience, I'm taking it all in - absorbing everything I can about this amazing profession we all fell in love with.

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6 Responses to Will this feeling EVER go away?

  1. Sean Dent Scrubs Blogger

    Ani, what’s really gonna blow your mind is the minute that feeling disappears something new crosses your path and you start all over again!
    It happens to me all the time! LOL

  2. Carla

    Ani, if it makes you feel better our preceptorship was only 48 hrs. I am still scared every day that I work that I have no idea what I am doing and that it is just some big fluke for me to be out on my own and that my teacher are going to jump out and have a “gotcha” moment.

  3. Before you know it, twenty years will be gone and if you’re lucky you will have a niche, or maybe like me you will have practiced every form of nursing under the sun. Either way, there are days and topics that make your confidence soar, and others when you second guess yourself adnauseum! After some time you will become confident enough to know its ok to say “I have no idea what the answer is, but I will find it and get back to you.” For me, becoming confident enough to to ask someone elses opinion or to ask for help …. that’s when the fear left. it took me a while to realize that I could not possibly know everything, but I know where to turn for help. Always remember you are not alone. Especially with the web… Its like having an expert in your pocket.

  4. Donna

    I know exactly how you feel! Am currently doing my 90 hours of internship, and always ask myself, “Is that all”? I feel that I totally lack the knowledge and skills at this point, thought I would get much more education in school. I guess most of the education comes with on the job training.

  5. leigh

    When you feel like you know it all and that you are the expert, most times you are dangerous. Remember, no patients are the same, so treat the patient and “not the numbers

  6. teressa

    i felt exactly the same way and here i am 14 years later and i have found my niche in rehab nursing and love it!! i thought i would never be comfortable as a nurse and really thought it wasn’t for me, now, i am certified in rehab and considered an expert!!n hang in there, it will happen for you too!!