I have written in the past about what I was looking for in the performance of nurses that I hire.Â About how making an impression is what is most important.Â Nurses that are struggling to do well but are really working hard will get my support 100%.Â But as soon as I see they are not trying anymore, I am ready to let them go.
I have not made a secret of the fact that I am not happy with my new job.Â It is not for me.Â I am not sure what it is, but I know now that I am not a clinic nurse.Â Not because I think I am better, but because I am not there.Â These nurses there are amazing.Â Their knowledge and critical thinking is out of this world.
I think my dissatisfaction with this job is really starting to show to my new boss.Â I have been talked to a couple of times about my performance.Â And when I walk back to my work station, I know I need to step it up, and work to my real potential, but I just can’t do it.Â I don’t know why, it’s all in my head.
I know what I need to do.Â I know that my performance is showing that I am not trying.Â And….I really want to do well.Â I really want to be successful.Â But the fact that I know I am not cut out for this type of nursing just keeps getting in the way.
It is Saturday now.Â I have this weekend to get my head straight and either step it up, or move on.Â If I am not going to step it up, I am just wasting my time and the organizations time.
Any suggestions are appreciated.